| Saturday, April 14, 2007 |
| Songs to Remember ^o^ |
Yesterday, while I was checking my inbox, there was an email that made me wondering who the sender was for I ain’t recognize the ID.. I thought it was a bulk mail, spam, or whatever (hahaha.. sorry, Z!).. but the title of the letter (“minta lagu”) made me curious n clicked it.. (hell, if it was a virus, McAfee, Norton, or whatever… would take care of it…. Wouldn’t they? haha..)
The point, is that.. some people may find a song as the way to express their feelings… to comfort their ‘pounding’ heart toward.. a ‘mute’ love, ‘impulsive’ jealousy, ‘hidden rage’.. n sometimes because it merely has its own history…or even because u often hear it...
So, guys ( since it’s a ‘renting’ –from-FS-blog of mine, LOL).. I’m telling u that it’s so very bothering.. upsetting.. sometimes frustrating.. if u want a privilege to hear n sing a song over n over in your ears.. cozy room.. bathroom… bus… train… pedicab, LOL.. (u don’t have to be a professional singer to tune, do u?) but u can’t find any single cassettes, CDs, Mp3s… like.. in the world.. (I’m sure u would ask Mr. ‘Google’ to seek for it, yet, sometimes he ain’t even know whether the song did ever exist…LOL).. it’s like, u know.. a part of our body is itchy but we can’t scratch it due to our ‘short hand’, LOL… that’s why, I do know…how it feels.. (so, Z… I do hope u’ll find what u’ve been looking for!! If u can’t, then u know to how to get it for free… hahahhaha…..)
Anw, my love to music began when I was in elementary school… being the youngest child whose bro n sis are more than five years apart n music freak.. made me, say, got lots of ‘advantages’.. I was in the third or fourth grade when I had to adjust myself to the fact that George Michael, Bon Jovi, Phil Collins, Stevie Wonders, Scorpions, Europe, Level 42, TOTO, Chicago, Lionell Richie, Air Supply n sorts… Vina Panduwinata, January Christie, Fariz RM, Harvey Malaiholo, Dian Pramana Putra… til Ikang Fawzy.. (with that “pakseipapak preman..preman..owwwooww”.. hahahah) filled the air in our family room 24/7!!! I didn’t even know how to pronounce English words n even what the meaning of some Indonesian words were.. I didn’t even give a damn about the singer’s face, hair style, bfs, gfs, scandals, etc….they didn’t bother me at all… all I did was singing…
Ever since, I’ve developed my interests to songs… particularly “western songs” (Indonesian call it, I guess, for they are written in English)… with all respect.. I do love Indonesian songs (as u read in my profile) sung by Armand Maulana (why in the world, to me, he’s like a magician whose every stunning spells make any songs sound incredibly good!!!..Tompi… Maliq n D’essentials.. n Marcell)… only let’s talk about the previous.. for I want to share some with u….
The first song that I often sang (w/ my limitation in English n ‘voice’, LOL) was ‘Careless Whisper’ by George Michael (up to now there’ve been many versions, like those of Dave Koz n Montell Jordan, Kenny G, Tamia, til Indonesian female musicians as Syaharani n Peppi kamandhatu.. but I still love it…‘Tonight the music seems so loud I wished that we could lose this crowd, baby It’s better this way, we’d hurt each other with the thing we want to say.. we could have been so good together.. we could have lived this dance forever.. but now who’s gonna dance with me.. please stay'…”) then… 'Carrie' by Europe... furrthermore, 'Never Say Goodbye', 'U Give Love a Bad Name', 'I’ll be There for U'.. by Bon Jovi.. even I loved ‘Making Love out of Nothing at All’ by Air Supply.. (see, I didn’t even realize what it was all about.. I was only nine or ten …hahah) even I often sang ‘House for Sale’ just because my eldest sis (in her last year of high school at that time, w/ no special reasons) often sang it (much later I found out that it was about a wedded couple who’s got to sell their memorable house due to their separation!!! See this: ‘house for sale, u can read it on the sign.. house for sale... it was yrs n it was mine… and tomorrow.. some strangers will be climbing up the stairs.. to the bedroom filled w/ memories.. the warmth we used to share’..)
Then, when I was junior high.. I knew that aching yet beautiful feeling to a boy (R) I’d known at elementary school.. so ‘First Love’ by Nika Costa was my fav… I got English at school.. so I understood the meaning (thank U, Bu Henny!!! U introduced me to the language I’ve been dealing with ever since U came into my life…) then.. there was that cute boy.. Tommy Page.. girls were mad about him.. who didn’t know ‘A Shoulder to Cry on’ (so R, where r u, now.. I wished I had been yr shoulder to cry on… God! The first puppy love.. hahaha), ‘I’ll be Yr Everything’…. then… the phenomenal ‘New Kids on The Block” with ‘I’ll be Loving U Forever’ (see this: I count the blessings to keep our love new… this one for me n a million for U''- Nice!) ‘If U Go Away,’ ‘Valentine’s Girl’ (Jordan Knight, I had once wished to be yr ‘Valentine Girl’, hahahahhahahaha…), ‘Since U Walked into My Life’, ‘Never Let U Go’, and Jeremy Jordan (btw, is he still around? I’ve never heard any of him, was he taking a part at Drew Barrimore’s “Never been kissed?” dunno…), anw, I like his ‘Right Kind of Love’ and ‘I Wanna Girl’… then Joey Lawrence’s ‘Stay Forever’.. u know, even that faking ‘pretty’ duo, ‘Milli Vanilli’ shook my adolescence time.. with that ‘Blame it on the Rain' n ‘I’m Gonna Miss U’…
My senior high, I started loving David Foster’s songs.. like ‘The Best of Me’, ‘Glory of Love’, ‘Through the Fire’, ‘After the Love Has Gone’… I love ’im not only because of the music but also the lyrics… (hey, I was growing up, wasn’t I? LOL).. check the verse from ‘Glory of Love’ out … I’m a man who will fight for yr honor.. I’ll be the hero that u’r dreaming of… (lots of girls wanna have one, right??!) I also found that Rap sounded sensible.. with that MC Hammer n Vanila Ice’s ‘Ice Ice Baby’.. (one of my classmates was able to sing it fully n it amazed me… n ‘Unbelievable’ by EMF.. well, BoysIIMen.. with ‘The end of the road’.. 'I’ll Make Love to You’.. ‘Water Runs Dry’…and ‘On Bended Knees’.. (‘I’m gonna swallow my pride, say I’m sorry, stop pointing fingers, the blame is on me…I want a new life.. and I want it with u, if u feel the same.. don’t ever let it go.. oww sweet…) n the Surface (thanks to my sis who helped me find the album til Jakarta) with ‘First Time’, ‘Never Gonna Let U Go’, n ‘Shower Me W/ Yr Love’ (let me remember the lyrics.. uhmmm ‘My heart is filled w/ so much love n I need.. someone I can call my own.. to fall in love.. that’s what everyone’s dreaming of… I know this feeling oh so strong’… see?? So… so… wattawwww!!!)n forget to mention this diva, Mariah Carey.. with the 'Hero' n so forts....
My College… here came Take That (I bet most girls loved Robbie or Gary, but I preferred Mark Owen!!!) I sang one of their songs ‘Babe’ in my ‘Speaking I’ class w/ a very good friend of mine (El, r’mber.. this? ‘he had my eyes.. he had my smile….’=P ) as the ‘opening act’ of our small drama about ‘Visiting a Museum’ or something...hahahha). ‘I Wanna See U Now’ by Leon Haines Band n ‘I Live my Life For U’ – Fire House (my classmates framed me in a game so that I got a punishment to sing -in ‘IC’ in bu Andreani's class: really, ma’am, U’r my inspiration in teaching, U’r AWESOME!!!).. ‘I’ll be Over U’ by TOTO (‘It takes sometimes.. God knows how long, I know that I can forget u’) I sang it in bu Mimil’s class.. yes, ma’am.. why I was the first to perform was completely outta my hands). ‘If U ever’ by East 17 feat. Gabriel (I intentionally sang from this part, ‘I just wanna be the one to serve U.. sometimes I feel as if I don’t deserve U.. I cherish every moment that we’d shared…’ in my favorite class: Bu Oka’s, in our last meeting- kinda farewell party. She’s the best lecturer.. really.. She wants us to be the best so we have to be the best… -though I always got A in yr classes, but I felt I wasn’t really that good, ma’am.. thank U.. I’ve learned a lot from U esp. bout how to be discipline n consistent; moreover, I tell U what, ma’am.. how to ‘fashion’ myself… LOL.. U’r COOL!!
Back Street Boys.. gee, I was about 20’s n fascinated with this boyband.. but yeah.. U may laugh out loud.. but I’ve got all their albums since the first ‘til the one before the last.. I liked Nick Carter, btw… hahahah.. with that hairstyle n look at that clip in ‘Quit Playing Games with My Heart’.. so cute!! N’SYNC… ‘I want U back’, ‘Tearing Up My Heart’ just because I loved the way they danced in those clips n Chris, hahaha (what?! others maybe fancy Justin, not me.. no, not me, hahah !!!) Not to mention, ‘For the Girl Who has Everything’- I used to use this song as the motivating strategy when I taught about ‘Money Matters’ to my students in the course I used to work..- Australian’s Indecent Obsession’s ‘Lady in Rain’ n ‘Whisper in the Dark’ (‘Whisper in the dark.. everyone hears… something bout the dark. It makes us listen to our fear.. love will find it’s own way even in the dark'…’)
Time passes by.. I still love music n beautiful songs (at least in my own terms n 'qualifications' n taste)… I use them both to 'reveal' n 'hide' myself… Sometimes I use them to motivate myself like R. Kelly’s ‘I believe I can Fly’… Cake’s ‘I Will Survive’.. n lately to express my ‘hidden’ feeling for a man I’ve known only –literally- by name.. I sent him some songs of Bali Lounge (‘Something’s Wrong’, ‘Are U here w/ Me’, and ‘Apa’)… but up to now, the unrevealed ‘treasure’ is still here in my heart.. whewww… whatta man! Has he been blind or heartless or what.. LOL… (so if U read this, bro, remember those songs I sent U a year ago or so.. late 2005-early 2006?? I wish I could wipe yr tears away.. C’est la vie…. Cheer Up!! There’s someone loving u, here… =P =P =P NUTS!!!)
So that’s the story….If I write more, -believe me, I’ve got still lots n lots songs to tell- I’m afraid even a life time ain’t enough… I get the favorite songs of mine through the ‘upside down of life’, too…LOL.. sometimes I got them after years of searching… sometimes by accident … I do believe good things happen to good people.. music is good thing but yeah.. am I a good person???.. only God knows… +P
SMILE everyone…. (PS: U’r welcome to share it w/ me….okay???!!)
I’d like to express my gratitude to:
1. Elok – a very good friend of mine for the last twelve years of my life who's shared these craziness.. let us be the ‘song hunters’ for good… hahahha.. thanks, pal!! R u sure the search will end? Ney, I don’t think so….
2. Makobu FM 88.7: The Fresh Channel for making my CD Collections more complete.. LOL (Nana, Bintang, Ichi, Pungki, P. Zoel, n the rest of the crew.. Guys, I can never thank u enough!!!!)
3. Disctarra, M Studio, Toko Kaset ‘Kawan’, BR Music Studio, n… (sorry… I forgot the name)
4. Primanet Jl. Basuki Rahmat Malang (where r the lists now? They’re GONE!!!)
5. My friends, colleagues, students, n others who’s ever shared the same interest… thanks.. GBU…
6. And at last….. My beloved brother, Heloz n sisters, Dyra n Ros.. for ‘feeding’ me w/ the wonderful music during my childhood… Love n Miss U All…. I’m grateful to be the part of our family... My wonderful parents: Bapak-Ibu.. Thanks for keeping up w/ my ‘insanity’.. =P =P … Love U, both…
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